Working Hard
Hahahahahha... When I read this, it reminds me a lot of my current situation.
The workload is increasing everyday, and the more efficient I get, the more work I get to do. I have two jobs, university, AIESEC and I try to somehow manage to pay the bills on time, organize my future career, and so on and so on. Hahaha... I really love Dilbert!
My favourite...
Artist: Amy MacDonald
Song: This Is The Life
Oh the wind whistles down
The cold dark street tonight
And the people they were dancing
To the music vibe
And the boys chase the girls, with curls in their hair
While the shocked too many sit way over there
And the songs get louder each one better than before
And you singing the song thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
where you gonna go, where you gonna go, where you gonna sleep tonight?
And you singing the song thinking this is the life
And you wake up in the morning and your head feels twice the size
Where you gonna go, where you gonna go, where you gonna sleep tonight?
Where you gonna sleep tonight
Where have you gone...
So, focusing more on myself, I try to remember where my thirst for knowledge has gone.
I loved to learn, but that somehow got lost lately...
I have tons of books that are waiting to be read.
I bought Chinese, Japanese and Arabic language books and CDs, and I haven't touched them lately.
I was standing in my room today, looking at all those things. I hadn't properly looked at them in a while. Simply just didn't have the time to do it.
Today I took the time, and it triggered something inside me. I took out some of the books and started reading. I played the Arabic language course CD again and tried to remember what I had learned.
I listened to different CDs, bringing me back to places where I had travelled.
I will surely not change from one day to the other, but I will keep digging into those treasures that are sitting on my bookshelves, waiting to be read.
Boots of Spanish Leather...
Having time to reflect, I remeber the times when I was perfectly at peace with myself. Those moments of complete happiness, of tranquillity and having the feeling of belonging somewhere.
Sitting in St. Stephen's Green Park in Dublin, drinking a hot chocolate, watching people passing by, and listening to Boots of Spanish Leather...
BOB DYLAN LYRICS
"Boots Of Spanish Leather"
Oh I'm sailin' away my own true love
I'm sailin' away in the morning
Is there something I can send you from across the sea
From the place that I'll be landing ?
No, there's nothin' you can send me, my own true love
There's nothin' I wish to be ownin'
Just carry yourself back to me unspoiled
From across that lonesome ocean.
Oh, but I just thought you might want something fine
Made of silver or of golden
Either from the mountains of Madrid
Or from the coast of Barcelona ?
Oh, but if I had the stars from the darkest night
And the diamonds from the deepest ocean
I'd forsake them all for your sweet kiss
For that's all I'm wishin' to be ownin'.
That I might be gone a long time
And it's only that I'm askin'
Is there something I can send you to remember me by
To make your time more easy passin' ?
Oh, how can, how can you ask me again
It only brings me sorrow
The same thing I want from you today
I would want again tomorrow.
I got a letter on a lonesome day
It was from her ship a-sailin'
Saying I don't know when I'll be comin' back again
It depends on how I'm a-feelin'.
Well, if you, my love, must think that-a-way
I'm sure your mind is roarmin'
I'm sure your thoughts are not with me
But with the country to where you're goin'.
So take heed, take heed of the western wind
Take heed of the stormy weather
And yes, there's something you can send back to me
Spanish boots of Spanish leather.
Who I am and what I want
As you might have noticed, my blog entries have become rare lately.
No wonder! My life is moving at such a speed and intesity at moment, I have barely time to sit down and do things that I really like: reading, drinking tea, eating, talking with my friends, writing...
I feel like I've been losing contact to my inner self lately because of that. I'm constantly running around and talking to people about university, AIESEC and work. I'm so focused on the outside and my external environment, that I forget why I'm doing it. And I get so caught up in processes and responsiblities, that I forget what I really want to do.
I don't lack motivation and I'm full of energy, but sometimes I feel really lost and I become sad, because I feel that something is missing.
I want to find time to think and reflect, time for myself and my passions and come in touch with my inner self again.
This is a promise to myself:
I will take time for myself, to feel and think, to pause and reflect, to take things slower and stop worrying about the external environment so much.
Starting today...
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What an intense time.... I can hardly breath, I got so many thing to do...
In times like these I try to remember the time I spent in England... Walking through parks... Breathing in the history surrounding me... Drinking tea... Eating scones... Bying books... And having great conversations...
Time seemed to be standing still...
I really miss it... I wish I can go back soon... Very soon...
Hahahahahha... When I read this, it reminds me a lot of my current situation. 
